2025 was a year of shedding; shedding blockages, toughness, and performances. It was a transformative year for me where I flipped my whole reality upside down. My lifestyle completely slowed and I realised I had been running at walls for a long time with my subconcious but powerful sole goal to show my strength and perseverance. To show people I am capable.
"Why do you need to feel capable?", the question a counsellor asked me in April last year that broke everything. I was caught in a circle of anxiousness; anxious to be capable of anything thrown at me, anxious to do things wrong, then anxious to disappoint. A cycle that had me constantly overthinking my character, my ability. Was it all just an act? What have I been doing this whole time? Who am I?
So I began to say something that pre-counsellor me would have feared to say out loud. "I've not done that before, but i'm happy to try". Sounds silly now and almost annoying that that was a big deal. But it was a big deal.
And the more I said it, the more comfortable I got with it.
And the more comfortable I got with it, the more I opened myself up to trying new things.
The more I tried new things, the closer I got to knowing myself.
And the more I tried new things, the more I realised that my wildest dreams were closer than I thought. With time, I had a realisation; I would rather give my wildest dreams a try than to just keep them as dreams.
So now we are here, 2026. And I'm trying. I made this website as a place where I can reflect and keep a track of my trying, creating a space to share the different types of mediums I use to explore my creativity. And a space to take my friends along with me. Time to jump!
